Look at you with your new wave hair cut

Wed, 12 Dec 2007 19:18:53 GMT

i feel very alone

sooo

Mon, 26 Nov 2007 19:44:16 GMT

the house i live in now and for some time has been so much fun these past months. sadly, my friend who i live with got busted and he is in jail now. the next day the landlord told us we were evicted. i dont see how things can get any worse. im going to court today to see what the verdict is. i hope he can come home so we can figure everything out and see where we are all going to go. another crappy thing is my best friend is moving to florida. i seriously dont know what im going to do.

war brain

Fri, 10 Aug 2007 04:14:22 GMT

I can't go on
You said my head's too heavy
I need that song
those trusty chords could pull me through
and early on
they saw the warning signs and symptoms all day long
we sit and dream of better days
where we'd hit the ground running on empty
stories we've been told
and all those nights we spent together never felt this fucking cold
when we let the car run in the driveway
kiss you one last time
before we brought the horse's in before the storm of '59'!
of 59' [x2]
i cant go on these limbs have grown to heavy
i need that song a night on earth could pull me through
and early on
they saw the warning signs and symptoms all day long
wonder how far from here we'll fall
before we hit the ground running on empty
stories we've been told
and all those nights we spent together never felt this fucking cold
when we let the car run in the driveway
kiss you one last time
before we brought the horse's in before the storm of '59'!

so i like the trio now

fall

Tue, 31 Jul 2007 16:07:48 GMT

this summer is going by so fast. i wish i could just stop it. im looking forward to warped tour and going to vegas in september. but im so scared for when my friends go off to school this fall. im losing more than usual this time. and im just going to PC for another year, hoping to get my AA this time around. this is my 4th year at PC! granted i took and year break and didnt go to class till the last quarter. im trying to save up money for vegas and warped tour. but its really hard because i have to pay so many other bills and i have to save for my car too. im going to try and enjoy these last few weeks of summer. but come this fall im going to be a very sad person.

i feel...

Thu, 21 Jun 2007 21:23:21 GMT

like a huge weight has been lifted. im flunking math and i dont even care right now. things to look forward to..

1. My birthday party on monday
2. reuniting with an old friend/ patching things up
3. Warped tour (duh)
4. Trip to las vegas in september with mari
5. Finishing my AA

great times

Fri, 25 May 2007 07:21:29 GMT

video from portland bright eyes show

Mon, 14 May 2007 02:35:34 GMT

watch it boo bear! its from about where we were, and he plays the calendar hung itself!

when you

Fri, 11 May 2007 00:21:42 GMT

get a valentine 3 months to late, it just hurts.
we just dont check our mailbox.

bright eyes @ crystal ballroom

Sun, 06 May 2007 03:39:30 GMT

was amazing

bright eyes

Wed, 18 Apr 2007 00:51:19 GMT

brit and i are going to bright eyes on may 2nd. we have decided we cant leave until we meet him/have physical contact with him. this is why:

Sat, 07 Apr 2007 03:27:21 GMT

ive been so tired lately it sucks. at least i got to hang out with brit on my days off. along with robbie and tyler. who left his guitar here. nothing like coffee in the morning with brit.next week im planning on feeling better. also i start school on april 9th whitch is going to be amazing. cept i have to come into work at 5am then go to school after that till 2 pm. bahhaa. hopefully i can spend alot of nights in pa with my pa kids so i dont have to go home..like ever.

burn this city

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 23:40:57 GMT

And stay up all night and sleep all day,
We were smart kids with too much to say.
And so, so sure that they were missing out,
They're the ones who were missing out, and
We were elemental, talked down to bare essentials,
Who knew we'd get so far?

Cause our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops.
They said we'd burn so bright.
We'd burn this city and go.

Play it again,(our Games of Love and Lust)
There's no such thing (no there's never too much).
And we were so, so sure, NO we never had a doubt.
Now were counting down days to getting out.

Cause our days were numbered by nights on too many rooftops.
They said we're wasting our lives,
Oh at least we know, that if we die - we lived with passion.
They said we'd burn so bright.
We'd burn this city and go.

life is good

Sun, 11 Mar 2007 02:38:40 GMT

me and metal mari mortuary

life could also be alot better. im so sick of being single. seriously. put me out of my misery!

my weekend (tues-thurs)

Thu, 01 Mar 2007 23:40:13 GMT

went to maris..met brody..coolest kid ever. mario made an appearance but i think mari and i scared him off. got to hang out with ross and brandi...cutest dog ever. we watched the scariest movie about 911 and how the government planned it all out...then we saw borat...FINALLY. Stayed up late pretending to be keith richards and brian jones while listening to fear and loathing in las vegas...while smoking some crazy weed. braved snow storm...listened to weird music that scared brody. highlight: ross and I making up new hardcore dances including the soup eater and the shopping lady.

fake friends

Sun, 25 Feb 2007 21:26:17 GMT

so ive been forcing myself to hang out with a certin person for the last year. and im not gonna do it anymore. they say they are a friend but they obviously arent. friends dont try to make you feel like shit. ive never had much in common with them except for the fact that we hang out with the same people. i think i just was hanging out with them to pass time by. i never really had fun and they constantly makes me feel like crap. i dont need to be around a person who is so negative ALL the time. i love the people we hang out with but i just cant be around this person anymore. so i might loose some people. i know who my real friends are and there are plenty of them. im not going to waste anymore of my time trying to get along with them and risk loosing my true friends. plus i dont like hanging out with somebody when i know any minute they are gonna say somthing to hurt me. EVERY time.

taste of chaos

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 03:21:32 GMT

yup jared leto. i finally met him

i think im drunk enough to drive you home now

Sat, 10 Feb 2007 21:36:14 GMT

bob marley day

Tue, 06 Feb 2007 16:59:28 GMT

and i havent smoked yet.
but i will.

Thu, 04 Jan 2007 06:46:16 GMT

so there is this boy.
if you know me well, you know about him.
...and how i cant get over him.
seriously the fall of troy says everything

Wake the sun,
so the stars can shine above what we define...
(Wait! Wait! Wait! Wait! Wait!)
Can you still see,
what you first saw in me?
Or are the words caught up in your teeth?
(Why?! Why?! Why?! Why?! Why?!)

Staring at your glass smile.
The one you know that we are dying to see.
Cut up all the words,
forgetting everything,
forever contradicting...

Wake the sun,
so the stars can shine above what we define...
(Wait! Wait! Wait! Wait! Wait!)
Can you still see,
what you first saw in me?
Or are the words caught up in your teeth?
(Why?! Why?! Why?! Why?! Why?!)
(Why?! Why?! Why?! Why?! Why?!)

sup 2007

Mon, 01 Jan 2007 15:58:09 GMT

christmas

Fri, 29 Dec 2006 03:29:52 GMT

yeah i got a new amp and a printer, and a bobblehead johnny depp haha. also a lot of other crap including way too much chocolate. i havent really updated in a while, highlight of my live thus far would be meeting my chemical romance...woot.

and hanging out with my friends

Sat, 25 Nov 2006 00:36:51 GMT

why are all my friends so fucking fake

Sun, 17 Sep 2006 17:19:14 GMT

so last night me ross, mario, katy and britney got so fucking drunk...well brit didnt cause she hates beer and katy left. but yuh, now i feel like shit. steel reserve sucks.
"hello paris.... IM NICARAGUA!"-mario
wtf?
and ace ventura never happened.

summer

Mon, 24 Jul 2006 08:02:51 GMT

highschool is over and its hard to believe
lots of memories id like to forget. i made my best friends outside of highschool and i think thats how it should be. nick visited me and we went bowling. i miss that kid way too much and i wish he didnt live in tacoma. warped tour was amazing. i meet derek who was an awsome person. i saw all the bands i wanted to see aswell. im trying to somewhat plan out my life but everytime i try to do that i feel like a loser.why cant i get my shit together? but then i look around and everyone seems to be as lost as i am. i feel like i work everyday of mylife and its no exageration. i think 10 days in a row qualifies. the money is good but i dont like having the money when all i do is spend it on food and random crap. i have no time to go and do anything fun. i feel like i was robbed of my adolesence. i want to cling on to sixteen so bad but its 2 yrs past. yay. now i can do whatever i want and smoke and whatever. i miss not caring. i miss it so much.
meanwhile i look forward to bumbershoot.

birthday

Wed, 28 Jun 2006 16:25:33 GMT

today is my birthday. 18. i cant belive it.